Where do I start? I guess I will start with what has changed my whole world recently. I’m going to be a Dad. Wow! This has been quite a journey for us. After nearly five years of false alarms and false pregnancy tests, we had just about given up on having our own children. We began to explore other options, and honestly we were OK with that. We believed God was calling us to adopt. As a matter of fact we had almost had the adoption papers finished and ready to mail off when we found out. We still want to adopt a child in the future, but for now we are going to put those plans on hold and seek God’s guidance for the right time.

God has indeed given us a beautiful surprise. I am amazed, overwhelmed, awestruck, overjoyed, and humbled all at once. Sunday night, September 24th, 2006, is a night that will always be one of those life-altering moments frozen in my mind. I will never forget my wife walking into the living room with a smile on her face and tears in her eyes as she held out 2 different “positive” tests. I remember saying, “No” over and over again as I teared up, not because I was upset, but because I couldn’t believe it. The impossible had suddenly become possible.

Now here I sit, 7 and a half months from the big day, and I can’t help but wonder what it will be like. Holding our baby for the first time. The sleepless nights. The laughter and the tears. Changing diapers. Feeding. Burping. Having a child that is totally dependent on you, and that wants nothing more than to be loved by you. What a day that will be. What a blessing. I’m not worthy of His blessings, but I am so thankful He has made me worthy. What an awesome God we serve.

Psalm 57:9-11

9 I will praise you, O Lord, among the nations;
I will sing of you among the peoples.

10 For great is your love, reaching to the heavens;
your faithfulness reaches to the skies.

11 Be exalted, O God, above the heavens;
let your glory be over all the earth. NIV